Jok3r96's Blog

jok3r96 — Tue, 20 Oct 2009 19:37:56 +0000

Today was the beginning of Fall or the rain gave a hint of the autumn weather. The gloomy sky starts the day with such a desolate feel, it is as if God himself is crying upon us. It is the start of the drama. The drama we all go through within our very lives. It is the very essence of humanity. It is the journey to find our soul purpose. Most ask themselves once in their lifetime the very eminent question. What is the purpose of my life. It all comes to our mind once because of our very existence and our knowledge gives us the capability to wonder. Some will be fortunate find God or a certain religion to seek such an answer. The journey to find God and to worship will be a lifetime dedication, but the answer is found. For those who seek an answer and cannot find are in a journey for a lifetime.

Why am I here? What is the purpose of my life? Does my life mean anything? What makes my life so special out of the billions of people out there? Is my life even important or meaningful? And even yet we are still blessed to be able to seek such an answer and have the time to have such curiosity. This beautiful creation of the Earth itself begins the journey to find the very meaning of our lives. The people around us that make up our lives. Everyday is a day to search within our daily life. Intentionally or unintentionally we are on our search. Most think that the truth or the answer will finally give relief and freedom. The beauty is not when we find the answer, but the beginning of what the answer opens. Life is truly like a cycle. A circle of life. How everything in life gives and takes. I believe that life is to find what you can give. Truly, one day each of us will find a meaning because everyone has something to give. Each and every one of us has an importance and value to someone in our lives. To whom we cherish and value our the ones that give such a meaning our in our life. A child, a lover, a brother, a sister, a friend, anyone that you choose to give your life for because one day you truly believe that your sacrificing your life is simply worth it.

One day, someday, when we find that one person, that is when you know that your life has a meaning…

10min exam…

jok3r96 — Wed, 14 Oct 2009 20:34:44 +0000

This morning I woke up around 11:00am and started to study for an exam I had for a one o’clock class. I got onto my computer and started listening to music and attempted to actually study. Within just moments later I was already dazing off into the lyrics of the music. I kept on surfing through youtube to find the right song to study to, but happened to fail. This so called “studying” for me lasted around 20min so I decided it would be a better choice to grab something to eat really quick and head to school to study instead. I went downstairs and grabbed some bread to eat in the car. Luckily there was no traffic and I was able to find a pretty close spot to park in the neighborhood area near school. I decided not to buy the parking permit this year because of the hassle and risk of taking more than 30min to park during the time I get to school.

The weather this morning was very cool and a bit of rain showered as I was heading to school. I put the windows down around half way to get a nice cool breeze which got me into the mood to study. Sitting in my car, I was in complete focus for another 20min for my last minute study right before class. As I was studying, I noticed there was some unanswered questions that I had on my study guide, which I couldnt find the answer in the book. It was around 12:34, so I decided to head to class early to get some help from a classmate to make sure I knew all the study guide answers. At the very least, I’ll have all those answers right, hoping those questions would come up on the exam.

As I was walking through the neighborhood to head to school, I checked once again what time it was.. I paused for a moment looking at my cell phone and right then I realized the class today actually started at noon! I then began to run as fast as I can to try to make it to class before it ends. In my head I thinking how stupid could I be! I was thinking that I had a one o’clock class the whole time when it was my Wednesday noon class. Thinking that I had all that time to study while the class was taking the test, the frustration of my carelessness was torturing me inside as I was running. The running only last through the neighborhood though. Sadly I ran out of breathe and at the worst time I had cramps which was aching pretty bad. I was able to run again by the time I took foot into the school and started to dash again. Not caring what was going around me I was breathing and sweating pretty heavily by the time I got into class. I looked at the classroom and there was the professor and one last student taking the exam. It was 12:44 and I asked the professor if I can still take the exam. She told me that I only had 10min to take it because she had another class to lecture at 1:00. I hurried and took the exam as quick as possible. Skimming through each question and some not having enough time to even read the questions thoroughly. I was able to finish the exam within 10min as she requested, but felt no confidence in the A I was reaching for. I got out of class with a smile somehow, thinking that I was going to class early and the next min I realized I was late. At the very least, good thing the exam was a multiple choice and I was able to finish it so I guess I have a chance of just passing the exam. Or I guess that’s the only chance I have to hope for…

About myself…

jok3r96 — Wed, 23 Sep 2009 06:46:52 +0000

A full-time student at Cal State Fullerton! Im a 4th year studying communication/film production. Taking 5 classes and working part-time at a small authentic sushi restaurant as a waiter. Growing up in a small urban city has given me a very simple and mundane life, but that didnt last until I went through some partying and loitering in the streets for a while when I was younger. Now im back on track again, student life has taken over and my main focus is studying to get the grades. Also, looking forward to graduating and getting out of the house and being able to support myself. I guess Im starting this blog to get myself out there and to keep a journal for myself with the career and passion im heading towards. I really want see how I am as of now and how i will end up by the time I graduate and futher on…

Hello world!

jok3r96 — Wed, 23 Sep 2009 06:42:38 +0000

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